confused.

this little girl can't get one thing off her mind.
she has tried. but she fought sleep all night to remain conscious so she could let herself be carried away by these thoughts. she was actually overjoyed everytime she woke up throughout the night, because it was a chance to think some more.

ridiculous. don't get ahead of yourself.

she actually thinks that maybe she has found what she was looking for. the way she is feeling inside is exactly what she wanted, isn't it? but part of her considers it wrong to be feeling so happy. part of her is scared. isn't this how she felt before, those years ago? and what happened before? she was hurt. she doesn't care, she'll take her chances.

it's too soon. slow down.
i don't know if i want to.