black flower blossoms.

listening to "tear drop" by massive attack at 2:42 in the morning does wonders for the soul.
"gentle impulsion shakes me, makes me lighter"

its been an interesting night.
i got dressed. black dress. scarf with the hearts. white lace gloves.
i painted my face. eyelashes as long as you could imagine. living doll, almost.
dancing with the lights off with a suspender clad boy. i hate you, but i love you, housemate.
"tear drop on the fire, feathers on my breath"

a phone conversation.
passionate and raw, i think i understand, at least a little. don't be afraid. only you have the power for change, and i believe in you whole-heartedly. the world is inside you, its just up to you to harness it; live as you will. live as you want.
"water is my eye, most faithful mirror"

taxi, taxi.
inside just as the day of supposed bad luck ended, then squashed frogs at the bar as usual. dancing - free, wild, organic and graceful. i can't feel my feet anymore. i can feel my heart beating in it's cavity. numerous propositions, but all i can think of is you. i was then abandoned, ran into someone i would rather not see, and hailed a ride home. i'm still tipsy.
"love is a verb, love is a doing word"

now sleep.