who would have thought?

written april 16.

It is here I find myself.
Poised on the cusp of what is, what can be, and the infinite unknown.
The world seems full of intense possibility. It is seeping into my pores, making me feel alive and strong, like I have never felt before.
In the silver shadows, I am radiating.

They say that when one door closes, another opens.
Well, as generic as it sounds, I feel like 20 have opened for me. I feel like all that I have ever wanted, and all that I could ever dream to be, are notions right here at my fingertips. A mere reach away, I am more ready than ever to jump and see where the fall takes me.

I feel more empowered than I ever have in my life. I feel like I have lost nothing, and gained everything. Though I am still finding myself and defining who I am, I am already amazed at what I have found. I am becoming that person I always wanted to be. Step by step, action by action, things are changing.

I have felt felt so much in 2 weeks after feeling almost numb for what has felt like a lifetime. I have felt real sparks, and I have felt a fire within me. I have felt the sea air whipping my hair across my face. I have felt the limitless possibility that comes with watching a sunset. I have felt the happy disillusionment of having one too many. I have felt dew on grass.

It takes dire times for you to realise what your life actually consists of. And that may be for the better, or for the worse. In my case, is has been for the productive, the wanted, and the amazement.
I have already met some incredible people who I feel are already impacting upon my life more than they know it. And then there are the ones who were always there, but who I would never have known I could draw such strength from.

I have opened my eyes at the world, and I am looking upon a world full of colour and shape. Though the light is still flickering into a state it feels comfortable with, I am confident that no matter what happens, I will truly be ok.

I am ready to embrace all that is on my own. I want to explore, I want adventure, I want love, and I want fireworks, and I am beginning to find all these things within my self.

I don't need anyone to complete me.
I don't need anyone to save me.
And really, who would have thought?