Idle mind no more.

I am not blogging anywhere near as much as I used to.
It's a complicated reason why, really; it goes beyond simply being "too busy".
Well, the amalgamation of reasons does begin there I guess.

My job has granted me an amazing opportunity to come into my own, in a role where I can shine and prove myself to the best of my abilities. But, this does take quite a toll on the rest of my life. It's exhausting and mind-blowing, and at the end of another day all I really want to do is just climb between my sheets with a book and let my reality take a rest. But I don't do that. I just continue to meander my way through the day, albeit in a slightly stunted fashion. I know that in time, my routine at work will settle more, and I'll start to feel at ease, but for now, there are always a buzz of little to-dos running through my concious mind.

Then theres the gym. Catching up with friends. Seeing family. Travel for business and leisure. Moving house. Running errands. Singing lessons. A trip to Ikea. More and more little things - and my time is gone and my mind is tired.

I also think differently about life to an extent too. I was happy having a void inside me for the last few months. It allowed me to get inside myself, and explore who I am, what I desire and what I want to compromise my life. Once that void was filled though, I began finding it a lot harder to communicate with myself, and get my thoughts into something more tangible than a flurry of perception only I could know. But, as He said, I need to find a way to express myself now that the lonely space within me is gone. I worry I'd sound like a broken record: happy, in love, happy, in love etc.

Whats wrong with that?

Maybe it's just about getting myself back into that mindset. Setting aside what is, and letting dreams take over. Setting aside time to get in touch with myself, and go on an adventure with tangents and truth.
It is my mind after all. If I don't hone it, I may well lose it.
So I'll dream away...